Dusk is just an illusion...

My fingers were slipping down your spine
As if they were doing the warm-up for a piano play
Your heart beat strong, you said you were all mine
And deep inside I felt that you would stay
With me this night,
Until the sun will rise again
You did forgot your pride
You said we were no longer friends
I’ve got the confidence
To take you to the stars
With zero tolerance
You’ve been caressing all my scars

brave little battered and bile drips the acid off her lips wipe on sleeve and then kiss

First chapter up! I apologize in advance - still in the un-beta'ed stage. Still looking for a beta-reader somewhere... As usual, critiques and comments are love :)

Happy holidays to everyone!

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Hey everyone!

I've been terrible taking my hormonal birth control pills this month and I have a few questions regarding my experience that I'm sure someone here can help me out with :)

Some history: I'm taking the Marvelon-28 combination pill and have been for over a year now.  Generally I've been fairly good at taking my pills within the same 2-3 hour window everyday but due to exam stress/a weird schedule this month I have been about 12 hours late twice.  The first pill I was late with was in my second row of pills.  I took it about 12 hours late and noticed some spotting on my underwear about 2 days later.  This was also the only day my boyfriend and I had sex without a condom during this pack.  The spotting has continued since then.  The next pill I was late for today (6 pills since the first one I missed).  I realized I was late when again I looked at my underwear and saw a great deal more blood than the spotting that had been happenning. 
So to recap: I was 12 hours late on both the 5th pill-2nd row, and 4th pill-3rd row.

Here are my questions vajpag:
*what are the chances that missing pills like this could result in pregnancy?  for instance, the official Marvelon instructions don't say that they recommend using back-up birth control after missing one pill... just after two.  Are these two pills close enough together to merit a need?
*I'm assuming the spotting was a withdrawal bleed.. would I be correct to assume that?

Thanks in advance for your help

Sorry if this has been asked already.

I am seeing my boyfriend around new year's, but my period is also due then. I am currently taking yasmin and have intentionally skipped my last 3 periods by not taking the placebos and immediately starting a new pack. I hear you're not really supposed to skip more than 3, but I really don't want to have my period when I see him.

The question: would it throw off my cycle or be bad in any way to skip the placebos again this time around, take like 3 or 4 of the pills from a new pack, THEN take the placebos and have my period? I would finish the pack after the usual seven days, then carry on as usual. Am I still protected? Would this throw off my cycle/would I even have a period?

Thanksss.

i know i've seen this here before & i tried looking as well as searching the pill info but i want to confirm something.

although yaz has 4 placebos, is it true that i can go 7 days before i start the new pack and still be protected? or do i need to start immediately after the 4 placebo pills run out?

i was supposed to start my new pack last night, but took my first pill tonight. am i good, or should i double up today & use backup for the next week?

thanks, & sorry for the repeat.

A disclaimer: I have to admit that I'm a little nervous to post this here. I think the accountability for our words that this community forces upon people is a WONDERFUL thing, and frankly, I don't have as much practice with it as I'd like. So if I phrase anything in a way that endangers the safe space, please let me know so I can fix it.

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When your male partner produces a HUGE load during head, what is your preference? Why?

- Swallow
- Chest
- Stomach
- Face
- Other

Hi again everyone,

I'm trying to find a reputable website that sells women's corsets/bustiers with garter belts... something dominatrix-y. Not teddies but corsets, something waist-length with garter straps... Anyway, Amazon sells mostly pleather and polyester and I was hoping to find something of better quality that's not too hard on the wallet. Macy's doesn't have that much to choose from, neither does Victoria's Secret. Any suggestions?

My boyfriend of over one year is disinterested in sex. Originally, the disinterest was caused by inexperience and performance anxiety. However, after many, many attempts to successfully have sexual intercourse and discussions about his fears/worries, we were finally able to have good sex. This was in the spring. His higher libido only lasted a few months though (late March to July). By August he was already disinterested in sex (not just piv, but ALL forms of sex) again. He constantly tells me how much he loves me, but it makes me think that he is only emotionally interested in me. I am the type of person who values a healthy sex life in a relationship and his lack of interest in sex is causing me to question if he is boyfriend material for me. We have talked about this issue on several occasions, but nothing seems to change. He blames in on his 'low libido' and 'not understanding his own body'. I have encouraged him to practice masturbating as a way for him to become more knowledgeable about his body (since he only masturbated in his junior year of high school/when he was sixteen years old) and/or to seek professional guidance. He seems to listen to my suggestions, but does not act upon them. I am beginning to question his sexuality/maturity since he expresses no interest in having any type of sex. Any advice on what to do about this situation? I am about to throw in the towel out of frustration and rejection.

I'm fairly new to this community (how did I go so long without joining?!) and I'm hoping that someone here is familiar with lichen sclerosis. With as many members as there are, it has to have come up at least once.

It started for me back in the spring of this year. I suspect I've had it much longer though as I've always had an itchy labia but only recently have parts of it turned white. The itchiness got extremely bad this spring and I got a little cut on my labia. (awful) Now I have pretty regular itchiness, the whiteness has improved but not gone away. My ND put me on steroids to control the extreme itching followed by estrace (estrogen) cream. The steroids worked but the estrace didn't do much at all. It may have improved the skin on my labia but not much else. Long term use of steroids isn't recommended so I've stopped. (under my ND's orders) I've read as much as possible about the condition but even most MDs/NDs (even some OBGYNs) don't know very much about the condition. Right now I'm using Emu Oil 2x a day because I heard it works great (my ND seconded the idea) and so far it's helping control some of the itching and healing my skin. I really wish there was a permanent cure. I also wish I knew WHY this was happening to me.

In general I'm very healthy. My only other major health complaint is very serious seasonal allergies. I know that LS tends to run in families and in those with other autoimmune diseases. Neither of those apply to me. I have lots of females in my family and none of them have it. Nor do I have an autoimmune diseases.

As I understand it right now my LS is pretty mild compared to what other women are going through but I worry it's getting/will get worse.

I'd appreciate any advice or knowledge.

I can't sing
In the right key
I can't play
Guitar by ear

I'm a disaster
Wearing a smile
Trying not to cry

Each time I fall
Each time I fail
Because everything gets harder
Everyday

...

I can't sing
In the right key
I can't play
Guitar by ear
I'm a disaster

At least
That's what they
Make me believe

Title: Bees
Rating: T
Genre: Fantasy/Sci-Fi
Warnings: Bi-lingual swearing and spontaneous combustion

Joyeux Noël et Bonne Année mon amis

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Hey all
I have a quick question. I have a small stone in my right kidney. I have had multiple doctor appointments, ultrasounds, to confirm this. Everybody says that it will just pass on its own. However, for the past two mornings I wake up around 6am with back pain and an INTENSE urge to pee. After I pee, I feel better. I take an Advil too. My question is does having a full bladder aggravate kidney stones? And what if anything can I do to prevent waking up at 6am?
Thanks.

I search for you in chat rooms
I search for you in books
I search within my dreams and then
within the nooks and crooks.

And every time I find you
The reason fades away
I get sick and tired and restless
One quick fumble in the hay

And then I’m gone, I’ve come
We’ve screwed we’re through
But the longing it remains
I search for love not you

Each time I swear upon
My crumbling soul this time it’s pure
Its simple they’re the one
I’m totally, definitely sure

Each time another pound of flesh
So familiar, so foreign, so real
For me to lick and love and fuck
Ourselves over that’s the deal

for every ebb flows fuller than the last gasp, lapsed grasps of past plans betray your last breath, the breadth of a few quick thoughts begins to widen, inciting excitement to be enveloped inside them, this writing, although i know it is the right thing, like lightning strikes, twice is too many times to fight then, alright, then slightly dimming moon-light into night might take more sleight, so sit tight then, and you'll be glad of how you had been

social convention

I know this isn't a health issue, but I do think it is vagina related and I would very much like to have a rant.

It is SO unfair that guys can sleep around and as long as they aren't in a committed relationship, no-one bats an eyelid. "Boys will be boys", after all. HOWEVER, when a women decides that she wants to have herself some fulfilling casual sex, it all goes tits up.

I mean, I was always aware of a mythical double standard, but I was in a long term relationship with a guy to whom I lost my virginity. Now, it's the end of my first term of university and I am totally feeling it. I've been reading various articles about it and I can't help feeling trapped between my wants/desires and the expectations of my gender and totally helpless to do anything about it! ARGH! I guess I was naive to think that I could expect someone to respect me, just because they were willing to have sex with me, huh?

So, I'd kinda like to just talk about it, opinions, experiences, advice?

*Sniffle*

Thanks

*EDIT*

Thanks everyone, what's come up so far is really interesting. I think my main problem is I'm trying to have this groovy positive attitude a la vaginapagina, but my own emotions/perceptions/self esteem issues are getting in the way. I'm starting to think that maybe one guy acting like a douche was just one guy acting like a douche, rather than the result of something that was wrong with my behaviour...

a song I scribbled down this morning.
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Climb aboard, sweet Courtney,
We’re just about to set sail.
The anchor’s raised, the engine roars
Eager to take you to foreign shores.

I hope the voyage is long, but pleasant
A little unlike the time we shared.
Soon you’ll be gone, and I’ll be without,
Pregnant with disillusion and hopped up on doubt.

Courtney, you sly little fiend.
You hoodwinked me and butchered my ego.
Sophia told me this too shall pass.
And I’ll soon let go of the things I’ve amassed.

You won’t even need a lifeboat for this trip.
This baby’s on autopilot, slicing the ocean.
Don’t carry a map, don’t stress, don’t fear,
Travel every inch of this world, but never return here.

Courtney you held my hand and put on some blinkers.
And conned me into voting for you.
A secret smile starts to take over my face,
Knowing you’ll never come back to this place.